Disconnected Rambles.. like more than usual

Random thoughts that I would have put in a random blog had I internet connection, which I didn’t til now..

I haz me a graduation dress!!!! It’s got like a black twisty design at the top, and it’s down to my knee and the dress part is dark blue and black and white in a diamondy sort of pattern, it’s very nice=D And I have lovely blue shoes and a matching bag, but the shoes are quite literally torturous to wear, but look reeeeeeally nice with it!!! I need to lose weight off my feet. Can you do that? Well my big toe on my right foot really, that’s the problem area, but all over probably wouldn’t hurt. My mum tried them on and was like they’re perfect and I was like well yeah, you’re 2 shoe sizes smaller than me!! Of course they’re perfect! It just proves my point. I’m going to try to break them in, but they are mainly plastic based, with shiny satin on top, but I don’t think they’ll have a lot of give. And I need to learn how to walk in them cos I can’t walk in heels, which they are, cos I’ve never had any need to, but these were pretty, and I’ll be taller than everyone anyway, so I might as well make it a decent distance.

Music just sounds better in the dark.

I like really hot showers. Like so hot that it’s almost too hot, but not quite. So when you get out you can see the steam coming off you. I’ve never really thought about how much I detest the cold, but I really do. And I so frequently am cold and all. Perpetually cold nose and feet. I think I will have to move to warmer climes in le future, being all pink all the time is better than only being able to wear like 1/5 of my wardrobe for 9 months of the year. That’d be ok if I was one of these people who was just always pregnant and therefore in maternity wear, but I’m not, so it’s not! I actually get confused when I’m not supposed to wear a long sleeved top under a tshirt with a hoodie and jeans. I actually don’t know what to wear. 7 days a week I go to school wearing the same thing, with a different tshirt, and the jumper depends on the weather, but there’s only like 4 I wear all the time. That’s not cool. I have sooo many clothes, and nearly all of them inappropriate for winter. That and I’m also soo not bothered. Some people (not looking at anyone in particular of course.. you know who you are!!) come into school every day in a different, nice, well-thought-out outfit. Every single day! That means thinking about clothes every single day! Dear oh dear..

Now I see it all. Those two children love each other. Well why not? So much the better. I hope they’ll be very happy. Ah, how I could even have thought...
It didn’t take her long to let the cat out of the bag. I admit I never suspected... in fact the news has quite shaken me. But wait a while, it’s not over yet.
Oh my God, what am I saying? What’s the matter with me? I don’t recognise myself. Have I come to that? What am I doing? I’m trying to give that poor girl away in marriage to an old man! I’m trying to use the doctor... he suspects, makes hints... Then there’s Arkady, and Rakitin. Ah..
But it’s really too much. Me jealous of Vera? Can I be... can I really have fallen in love with him?

First section of my drama piece, you like? The bold is where I went wrong, cos I’m trying to learn it and all, and this was open already and I’m too lazy to do it anywhere else. Woohoo unrequited love. It gets better and all.. but that will have to wait til I learn this section=D

Which though it is some hours later, is now for you people=P

What? Do you still doubt it? Yes, you’re in love you wretched woman! How it happened, I don’t know. It’s as if I’d been poisoned. Suddenly everything’s shattered and confused. He’s afraid of me. Everyone’s afraid of me.
And what could he possibly see in me? What would he want with someone like me? He’s young, and she’s young. And I!
Ah how could he understand me? They’re both silly just as Rakitin says. Ah, that one, I can hardly stand him for being so clever. And Arkady, my good trusting Arkady. Oh God I wish I were dead!
But good heavens, I must be going out of my mind! Why exaggerate after all? Well, alright, I’ve received a blow, I’m not accustomed. It’s the first time I... yes the first time! It’s the first time I’ve been in love!

Poop *goes to learn some more*

I think one of the best things I ever did was buy the CliffsNotes for Jane Eyre, because I cannot possibly bear to read that ghastly book again in its entirety. Detailed summaries will certainly do for me, thank you very much.

You know what’s pretty? “You Lisa” I hear you all chorus, thank you, thank you many fans and admirers, but that’s not what I was referring to. =D
When it’s like evening time, before the sun has gone down, and my bedroom shutters are closed, but the light is coming through in little gold lines on my wall/wardrobe depending on the time of year. It’s all golden and lovely and makes me happy inside.

Just watched last episode of the first series of the American Office, which I <3 even though I hadn’t been expecting to, and it turns out I hadn’t seen that episode, and it features none other than Oscar Nominated Actress Amy Adams! She’s so purty! I also do rather want to marry Jim Halper. Although I’m sure John Krasinski or whatever his name is (note to self, check his name) is rather wonderful, and that Emily Blunt is desperately happy, but I know Jim quite well at this stage, and I do believe we’d make a lovely couple. I really ought to add him to my list of fictional characters you would. Even if he does have an actor and all that, and that’s why he’s so tall. Also have a soft spot for Ryan, or BJ as we call him, that being his name and all. You know he writes it? I know, he’s very clever is our BJ. He reminds me so much of someone but don’t know who and it’s really starting to annoy me. Particularly as I think the person he’s reminding me of is himself in a different episode.. and that is very sad indeed..

I’ve been listening to a lot of DFTBA Radio in the last 2 weeks, cos I have the podcasts, and it’s reeeally good! The music is awesome, and I have 2 new musgasmic songs for you all: Exterminate Rengenerate by Chameleon Circuit, awesome awesome awesome music, even if you don’t know anything about Dr Who like mee, still verrrry good=D And the other is Stalingrad by Michael Aranda, which is what all the Russian techno lastfm keep recommending me just wishes it could be, like a lot of it is good, but another lot of it is very very bad, like it’s just noise. And I don’t often say that about music. But yes, go subscribe to the podcasts on the itunesage just search dftba radio, or go to the website, which I haven’t actually been to yet, I just downloaded these and buggared off, but its dftba.com. Cos there’s much more awesome music that I haven’t mentioned yet, in them and it’s fun and all and Todd has such an excellent voice for radio, and that Caitlin girl seems lovely tooXD

Just made a playlist of songs that are made of awesome. Like the 5 star songs that make you wish there was a higher rating than 5 stars to give them. Those songs. So far I have 49, which I will now tell you, cos the theme of deception in Macbeth just does not interest me.
So in alphabetical order:
Ache - James Carrington
Adieu - Enter Shikari
Badman - NSG
Ben Bernanke - Lemon Demon
Breathe Me - Sia
Candy Girl - Soviet
Dark Blue - Jack’s Mannequin
Decode - Paramore
Eels - The Mighty Boosh
Eve’s Beach - Dave Reardan
Eyes On Fire - Blue Foundation
Facades - Philip Glass
Get Smashed Gate Crash - Hadouken!
Glory Box - Portishead
Gorecki - Lamb
Hate Me - Blue October
He’s A Pirate - Pirates of the Carribean
The Heart Asks Pleasure First - Michael Nyman
Helena - My Chemical Romance
Hold Me Closer - NSG
I Giorni - Ludovico Einaudi
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie
I Will Follow You Into The Dark (cover) - Blue Skies
I. Lento—Sostenuto Tranquillo Ma Cantabile (1st Movement of Symphony of Sorrowful Songs) - Henryk Gorecki
Inside - Blue Skies
Iris - Blue Skies
Kiss Britney’s Boyfriend - Titus Jones
Lucky - Jason Mraz & Colbie Caillat
Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off - Panic at the Disco
(Mucho Mambo) Sway - Shaft
Natural Anthem - The Postal Service
No More - Alex Day
The River Flows In You - Yiruma
Santa Maria (Del Buen Ayre) - Go Tan Project
Sea Of Love - Cat Power
Skins Theme Tune - Fat Segal
Sound Of Pulling Heaven Down - Blue October
Such Great Heights - The Postal Service
Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
Telekinesis - Lemon Demon
That Boy That Girl - Hadouken!
Theme From The Mighty Boosh
There’s A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven’t Thought Of It Yet - Panic at the Disco
Unintended - Muse
Untrust Us - Crystal Castles
Word Disassociation - Lemon Demon
You Can Call Me Al - Paul Simon
5 Years Time - Noah & The Whale
18th Floor Balcony - Blue October

Woohoo! Yay for awesome music! And Exterminate Regenerate and The Witch’s Song will be on there quite literally the second I have them=D