*sigh*

I miss people.

I miss seeing people, in real life, not through a haze of alcohol, and not in Dundrum.

I miss people I haven't seen in ages, and I miss people I see often.

I miss people I used to talk to but don't anymore. One of those in particular. But no matter, he'll come back soon enough. He always does. He better. *shakes fist*

I miss the semi-freedom of last year. It wasn't so much going out as being able to be on my laptop whenever I wanted to. And I know it was a really bad idea and all that, but it was so much better to be able to write blogs when I felt like it, read blogs, and make videos, and watch videos! Remember that? When I watched videos???

My o key is being totally retarded and I have to keep going back to redo it. Twice in that last sentence.

I miss having a life. I was looking at my TY Diary today, I mean we were losers, and soo young, but at least we went out and had lives, and talked to each other and stuff.

I want a life. I want it to be summer now, but not this summer, cos this summer is the end (and beginning blah blah blah) of life as we know it, and we'll be grown ups. But I want it to be the sort of summer that's warm (or even mild) and dry, and we can go to the park or town or anywhere, and wear flipflops and sunglasses, and just walk around with each other, having a damn awesome time.

I want to stay up all night, and watch the sunrise and go to bed at 7 in the morning and get up at 3 in the afternoon.

And I actually miss my get skinny walks in the park, cos it was always so pretty and sunny and lovely, and it was bonding time with Ringo, which I don't get enough of anymore.

I just want to be able to do something enjoyable again, without the "shouldn't you be studying?" voice there. And by the time I'll be able to, it will almost be too late. We'll already be grownups.


And it occured to me today as I was perusing the classic quotebook (which is just so cringy it's ridiculous), we're not going to have a quotebook anymore. Like when we put up the last of the quotes on the internet, after summer presumeably, that will be it. No more quotebook.

And now I'm crying. Smooth Lisa.

But like, no quotebook!!!!

Can we not like finish school, and have the rest of life be an infinite summer?

I'm so having a Peter Pan moment right now.

And by the way, Eyes on Fire by Blue Foundation is quite literally the soundtrack to my life. Like 30 times in the last month, according to my itunes here. Also Sea of Love by Cat Power. Yays.

Oh life, will you ever be less full Leaving Cert??
Life: Yes, but first we must have some more Leaving Cert!!!


I really want a hug. Not even a tall person hug, though that would be preferable, just a hug from someone, my heart is hurting and not like it does after a steep hill. Har har har, Lisa made a fitness based joke.

But it is.

And it's cos I miss you<3